fall to pieces of me
12:06 p.m. & Monday, Jul. 05, 2004

i like the title.

avril - he wasn't

he wasn't what i wanted what i thought, no

he wouldn't even open up the door.

he never made me feel like i was special. he isn;t really what i'm looking for.

ha

and fall to pieces

i don't want to fall to pieces. i just want to sit and stare at you. i dont want to talk about it and i don't want a conversation. i just want to cry in front of you. and i don't want to talk about it cause im in love with you.

but this song...

my eyes just watered when i read the words...

maria mean - sorry

Vage sound of rain

pierces through my song again

but I get distracted by the way your toes move when it plays

so I let it burn

I just poured my heart out

there's bits of it on the floor

And I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water

And call them up for more

And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely

And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me

And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too

He said I'm sorry

so sorry

I'm sorry

so sorry

He grabs my wrist

as my fingers turn into angry fists

and I whisper why can't you love me, I'll change for you

I'll play the part

And I say baby, i feel so stupid to call you, but I'm lonely

And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me

And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too

oh my gosh... i have to leave on that. the chorus and the last verse... man.

i'll say this first though...

had an intresting weekend.

learned valuable information.

had FOUR... count them FOUR.

hahaha

friends have been shady though... but not all. kayla has been good to me.

well, i'm about to bathe and go waste time alone. mere is being an ass.

but really... that song. o gosh.

and some song by jessica simpson that kayla made me listen to.

something like "a little bit goes a long way"

way to poppy for me. but the words are spooky.

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