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im just not sure why i'm HERE in the first place. i didn't ask to be in this position. i didn't ask to know this... or to be put through that. i acted accordingly. and im hurt for it. all of it out of my control. all under yours. you think you're so smooth. avoiding me until i couldn't be mad anymore. pretend nothing ever happened. well we can pretend but we wont ever have the chance to remember. and now... the silent treatment.
this has all happened before you know. he's remorseful. but i built up a tolerency for his lines. ya'll have more in common than you ever thought. here's your chance to be like those boys.
"baaarinng!" another message recieved. it's funny to notice how i dont anxiously wait for it to ring or run to it when it does. i know it's him. and... okay. what should i be so excited about?
i really like him a lot. more importantly im not freaked out by him or his apparent intrest in me. seems i've grown up a bit. i like people i can actually "have."
wish i were strong enough to brush it off. i dont think anyone with a heart could shake this though.